Peralta: “I’m angry with myself”
Jhonny Peralta returned to the Tigers on Wednesday to begin working out on the field for the first time since his suspension began six weeks ago. He also began working out some of the lingering questions that he couldn’t, or didn’t, answer while Major League Baseball’s investigation into his involvement in the Biogenesis scandal.
He apologized again for the mistake he made getting involved with performance-enhancing drugs before Spring Training in 2012. In so doing, he hoped for some understanding, though he wisely hesitated to use the word forgiveness.
“I think I say what I say before. I apologize to everybody,” he said. “I think everybody understands. We make mistakes sometimes. We’re human. It’s happened to a lot of people.”
He also admitted times over the past month and a half that he was angry about his decision. He’s still angry now.
“Right now, what happened before, I’m angry with myself,” he said. “I don’t know how to explain it, the situation that happened, but I’m kind of mad at myself.”
Asked how much the investigation weighed on his mind as the season unfolded, he offered a little insight into why he only took baseball questions for the most part when interviewed all summer. More than fear of saying something that would come back to haunt him, he was trying to block it out.
“That was kind of tough,” he said, “but I tried to be positive every day in the field, tried to show up for the guys and my team. I tried to win the game every day. I tried to [be around] the guys like nothing happened. I mean, it’s kind of hard for me, but I tried to stay concentrated on the game every day, day by day. I think I did pretty good, how I played the game.”
More from Peralta …
- If he’s nervous about teammates’ reaction: “No. I know every guy on the team. I know the first step that I make into the clubhouse, I know they’re going to be happy. Every guy in the clubhouse, they’re really friendly. I think when we’re together, we’re like brothers, so I know they’re going to be happy.”
- On how he’ll be received by Tigers fans: “I think the Tigers fans, they know what’s going on. They already know what happened with everything. I think for what I do in Detroit, I think the fans are going to be OK. I think they apprciated what I did before and everything and tried to back the team. I think the fans in Detroit will be the fans.”
- On what he did after the suspension: “I think I take like a week in Cleveland. After that I go back to the Dominican and tried to work out every day. I know in the Dominican I can have time to work out every day.”
- On getting over feelings of regret: “It’s already happened, whatever happened. I tried to forget about the past. I tried to move forward now. I know it’s a little hard, what happened before, but I tried to be positive to try to enjoy the game when I come back here.”